“That was the thing. You just never knew. Forever was so many different things. It was always changing, it was what everything was really all about. It was twenty minutes, or a hundred years, or just this instant, or any instant I wished would last and last. But there was only one truth about forever that really mattered, and that was this: it was happening. Right then, as I ran with Wes into that bright sun, and every moment afterwards. Look, there. Now. Now. Now.”—from The Truth About Forever by Sarah Dessen (via lifeorsomethingwonderful)
Hate when I have time to myself because it’s when I most think about you. I shouldn’t be..but I am. Someone tell me how you erase 5 years of your life? As far as I can tell you can’t. It sucks. Even in a different city you haunt my thoughts. I guess it’s my fault though. I let it happen. I miss you. Everything from the beginning, when it was just us. You know someone actually asked me “How many things are you bringing that remind you of him?” I said not much, but what he doesn’t know is that I don’t need to bring things to remind me of you. All I need is Enrique Iglesias to come on Pandora and I think about how you played that song on repeat for like months. Or to see a burger and think of the time we went to five guys and you made me do the cheers thing with our burgers. Or see the farms around here and think of the time that we went to the farm with your parents in New Hope. That actually ended up being the day I realized I wanted to love you forever. Ha..Everything I see brings back a memory. That’s what happens when you make someone the center of your world for so long. It’s a tough path to break away from. But I’m trying. One day I will wake up and be okay with how things worked out, but that day is not today.